The Mindless Rantings Of A Poet's Soul

MAJOR SPOILERS (MY SYNOPSIS OF LORD OF THE RINGS: RETURN OF THE KING

2003-12-21T10:15:00.000-05:00

*sings* I saw Lord of the Rings, Return of the King, on the 17th. It was absolutly amazing, the best movie ever. Once I got out of the theater, I wanted to go right back in and see it again. Pippin actually sang, and so did Aragorn! Pippin looked into the palantir (there's an awesome shot of him writhing on the floor) You get to see Bilbo again, and Merry and Eowyn slay the witch-king! Merry is behind the witch-king, and he stabs him in the back, and Eowyn is standing in front of him, beside the fallen Theoden, and the witch-king goes "No man can kill me!" Because he still thinks that Eowyn is a man, because of her disguise, and she pulls her helm off, golden hair falling, and declares "I'm no man, I'm a woman!" and she kills him with one plunge of her sword. Faramir and Eowyn fall in love! Aragorn leads the army of the dead. The ring is destroyed when Gollum bites off Frodo's finger! (One hell of an awesome close up of his finger, a bloody stump!!) Sam saves Frodo, and then they are in turn saved by the Eagles. Merry, Pippin, Frodo, and Sam go back and set the Shire to rights, Sam gets married and has a daughter, and then, finally, and sadly, Frodo, Bilbo, Gandalf, Galadriel, Celeborn, and Elrond, go off to the grey havens. All the hobbits are crying, and then, as if it weren't sad enough, Frodo goes "I saved the Shire, Sam, but not for me." And there, I let loose one long flow of tears. Aragorn is crowned King of Gondor, and he slowly approaches the hobbits. As he does, Frodo, Sam, Merry, and Pippin go to bow, but Aragorn stops them. "It is not you who should be bowing, but me." He said, and bowed, and when he bowed, all of Minas Tirith bowed. It was absolutly amazing. There's also this awesome shot of Frodo in Shelob's web, where he's deathly pale. Sheblob was spectacular. And you get to see Smeagol and Deagol before the ring corrupted Smeagol, in the very beginning. This movie is absolutly spectacular, and in every aspect the best creation of cinema ever. It will blow your mind, your seat will be shaking, you will not be able to let your eyes stray from the epic battle scenes for one moment. It's a clash of emotions and feelings on horseback in the greatest cinematic battles ever. I bet, at one point, you'll realize that your mouth has been hanging open for 20 minutes because you just couldn't believe what you just saw on that screen. And you'll probably cuss more than once in amazement. But, if you do go to see this movie, don't run your mouth the whole entire time about, no one really cares how you feel about the parts with Sam, they want to feel the emotions for yourself. (There's was a real over-emotional woman behind me who couldn't stop her mouth) If you end up seeing this movie, and don't see the magic in it that everyone else in the theater sees, don't ruin it for your fellow movie watchers, please, and heed the sharp glances that may be shot at you.

You are Wolverine!

A loner by nature, you feel uncomfortable when
around those you don't know and even those you
do. You are awkward when it comes to
relationships, but fiercely loyal to those you
love.

Which X-Men character are you most like?
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2003-12-05T17:51:00.000-05:00

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Well, that story I wrote for Mrs. F's class was so amazing some of the words I used stumped some of the teachers, and they've ordered another copy of my book for the school library to keep. I'm on the rocky road to writing stardom, I guess, starting out small, being ripped off by major corporations and international societies, who'd like to put my poetry on CD after CD and expect me to pay them for a copy of the CD, not giving me a freaking dime. I'm doing this all about me project in Mrs. F's class now. The funny thing is, however, that my life is pathetic, boring, and in some ways sad. But hell, I dazzle and razzle my project up with Matrix pics, LOTR pics, POTC pics, and pics of my dog.

12 more days of my suffering, and then, alas, all will be well, for Lord of the Rings: Return of the King comes out on the 17th, and I will finally get to see the ending on the big screen, I am both anxious, and sad.

I'm a big dork. However, I won't elaborate here. But hey, at least I'm not like Claire, at least I'm happy to be myself.

2003-11-28T22:07:00.000-05:00

Tis that time again. Where, in the misery of a bloated stomach, I reflect upon how outrageously useless my existance can be. I mean, today, what have I accomplished but sitting on my ass and crocheting? Absolutly nothing. Aye, mate, the evil Thanksgiving Day pie is taking it's revenge.. I seriously wouldn't doubt it if I've eatten more than 5 slices, if I were daring, I might go up to 10, which is probably why my stomache's giving me hell right now. I haven't even written any of my book today. Which, is 27 pages, so far, just in case you really cared. I, however, manage to get some work on my website down. Hey, now there's a plus to my pathetic existance. I don't believe I'm usually like this, but I'm half asleep right now and in a bad mood.. well.. not a bad mood, more like a self-loathing mood. I'm going to gorge myself on quizzes, so have seeing my results. Maybe you'll be inspired, which I seriously doubt, since I can't see myself inspiring anything, my character, Aerandir, seems to be the one who could help you in that area.. but she'll be soon attempting scuicide, so a guess she really couldn't work any of her inspiring magic on herself.

You are naturally born with a gift, whether it be
poetry, writing or song. You love beauty and
creativity, and usually are highly intelligent.
Others view you as mysterious and dreamy, yet
also bold since you hold firm in your beliefs.

What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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What Finding Nemo Character are You?
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Pirates of the Caribbean!

What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
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Your soul is bound to the Solitary Rose: The
Alone.

"When I wake up alone, the shades are still
drawn on the cold window pane so they cast
their lines on my bed and lines on my
face."

The Solitary Rose is associated with loneliness,
melancholy, and patience. It is governed by
the goddess Merope and its sign is The Sword,
or Unrequited Love.

As a Solitary Rose, you may be summed up as a
hopeless romantic. You desire love and have so
much love to give, but thing just never seem to
work out the way you want them to. In life,
you can be very optomistic, even when things
are gray and nothing works out to your
expectations.

What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To?
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You represent... angst.
You have an extremely cynical outlook on just about
everything. It's okay to sulk and be
depressed, but life is short, and you only get
one. It's only what you make it, and only you
can make it improve.

What feeling do you represent?
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2003-11-19T20:50:00.000-05:00

It's been a bad day. But, a good thing happened to me. We're writing stories in Mrs. F's class, so I let her read mine. She said it was awesome, there was nothing about it that she would have changed, and she wants me to check into publishing. It boosted my self-esteem a lot, since the best publishing deal I've gotten is from Poetry.com, which, is a RIP OFF! You don't get paid anything for poems, they just use you.

I'm going to murder the person who wrote the Oscar Meyer Weinner song! Grr..

My lifelong goal is to become a hermit. I want to go to Duke, establish a good career, and then go off into Ireland and find me a sea-side cave dwelling and stay there, writing my stories, and sending them off to my publisher. I don't want to ever have contact with human kind, with the exception of Sam, ever again. Sam will be scouting out areas when she visits Ireland this summer, so I can go ahead and start looking into purchasing my land. I am also deadly serious about this, as well. I HATE PEOPLE!

2003-10-25T10:38:00.000-04:00

You are Trinity, from "The Matrix."
Strong, beautiful- you epitomize the ultimate
heroine.

What Matrix Persona Are You?
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You are "Welcome to the Caribbean, love."
You're more than a little world-weary, but also
intelligent and you keep your head when things
get dodgy. You're everybody's favorite
drinking buddy, but your stubbornness does get
in the way sometimes.

Which one of Captain Jack Sparrow's bizarre sayings from Pirates of the Caribbean are you?
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=+Accurate Harry Potter Housing Quiz+= (pictures!) by: Evey
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Mirkwood Elf.

Are you a Mirkwood, Rivendell, or Lothlorien elf?
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Seer

The ULTIMATE personality test
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Your Captain Jack Sparrow
You're not always clear when you say something, but
you are trustworthy.

-x-What charater from Pirates of the Carribbean are you?(with pictures)-x-
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Your a true romantic. You're the kind of elf that
many find to be deep and sensitive, but that's
a good thing!

*~What's Your Elf Personality? (with pictures, for girls)~*
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2003-10-06T18:03:00.000-04:00

Neopets - Neopian Adventure Generator

Alright, I've got a lot beef or rant about today. This day was horrible for me. I get to school, turns out I got a 75 on my algebra test. Legolamb's got her freaking contacts on. She can't stop smiling. I'm tempted to wipe the grin off her face with a swipe her hand. She hadn't started wanting contacts until I was talking about getting them. Of course, though, I've got to wait until I'm in 8th grade and it's been a year since I got my glasses. Well, I've got my appointment the 16th.. but wouldn't you believe it, little Legolamb decides she wants contacts, complains to little mommy, and bam, she's got them. I was talking about getting cable internet, they were supposed to install it the friday after Hurricane Isabel. It's been about 3 weeks, and no cable internet. Guess who's got her cable internet now? It's just entirely unfair. I've got to wait, earn, and excercise restraint before I get the things I want, and Legolamb simply asks for them and she's got them. I had to harrass my mom for weeks, no, for months, to get me a new sweatshirt before she finally bought me one yesterday. Now, mark you, this is something I actually needed. Lauren decides she wants her room re-done, and she's got it done by the time school starts, in tye-dye, which, she's got to be constantly bragging about. I started my room 2 summers ago and still haven't got the comforter that matches my sheet set. Not to mention, we haven't painted my room at all, and I don't have any new accessories. She's so out in the world for herself. She can't show any sympathy for anyone else. I told her I've got a cold, a very bad one, my nose is swollen, snot is coming out like you wouldn't believe and I have a horrible headache, in excuse for my even more distant actions. She doesn't say, "Oh, I'm sorry," or "Okay, I'll give you some space", it's just her usual complaint "I've got a cold too.. everyone feel sorry for me because I've got a tremendous stick up my ass and not even my pshycho-therapist mommy can manage to pull it out" and she remains in my face bragging about tofu and her tye-dye room and loose and nice and incredibly considerate of people she is. Oh, and she calls herself "laid back" and a "romantic". And I've got my head on my desk, or banging it into a poll thinking "What the hell gave her the idea I care?!?"

"I sometimes cry easily, and I am kinda sensitive, especially when it comes to people I am close to. I can't stand to see someone hurt. I get mad and jealous easily and I'm not that modest, and those are my main bad qualities, aside fr. I hate lieing, and I have a really powerful consciounce, which sometimes gets annoying. I am loyal to God, and don't cuss (or try not to), and try not to sin. I sometimes want to become a nun, but other times I feel that that is not what I want to do with my life. I like to sing, and draw, and I like to read. I sometimes write, even if I am not that good. I want to learn to divination, because it interests me. Some people think they know me, but they don't, I am always surprising them. I also need to be a little more modest. I am shy around strangers, but rather loud around people I know. I usually put other people before myself. I Can't fit anymore!"

She's such a fake. That was her AOL description. She makes herself out to be some perfect person, because she's on this ever going quest to be perfect. She's all preppy. It's sad.. because I believe that at one time she was a good person, though, not during any of the time that I knew her did she exhibit any good qualities. I wish she'd just go join the cheerleading squad since she claims to be "cheerful". Yet, she's the same person, who, if one little thing went wrong in perfect life, she has a fit, all mopey and depressed, stomping around in her six inch heels because she had her period. My sanity.. if I did that, my feet would hurt. I know what it's like to be let down, I know what it's like to hit puberty.. and I accept it as a part of my life. Failure, disappointments, and low self-esteem are part of my everyday ritual.

She's also calling me short all the time. It gets on my nerves so badly. I'm not short. I'm fucking average height. How would she like it if I went around saying "Legolamb, you're fat!" or like that kid in The Wedding Singer, and run up to her say "You're a bitch." I'd send her into another 30 journal entry period of depression, because she can't handle real life. She'll deny anything you say about her because lying is so easy for her. I absolutly hate her, I wish she'd just leave me alone. But, she can't. I've moved on from our "friendship" but she still hangs there. Ha, my new best friend understands me, reassures me, and is there for me. All of which Legolamb never was.

Though, here's something that made me happy. I was telling Maria about how legolamb won't stop bothering me about my height and Maria gets up and shouts across the Mr. K's class. "Hey! Legolamb! Look at me! I'm short too!"..
Maria's a great person.

I think I'm done, I hope Legolamb reads this.

2003-10-04T19:13:00.000-04:00

Gandalf Template

Heh, that template is my own creation! I'm so proud of myself. I haven't posted often because I've been busy. I finished my novel, right, and then I did my project. Well, I spent a lot of time on my project and did my very best on it and turned it in 2 days early. I got a 100 on it, and my teacher, on the grading rubric, wrote "Awesome" "Very Nice" "Good" and "Excellent" beside each assignment. I dreamed of that happening, but didn't actually believe I'd do that well. By Friday she had already bragged about me. I am so proud of myself right now. I also got another poem published. It's been a generally good week for me. I got my locker open, which had been stressing me out a lot. I redeemed my own from the 60 on my quiz, and got a 100, and then, another 60, but I think I aced the test. At least, I really hope I did. It's algebra, and I think I can keep my grades up above a C. Algebra is the first class I've actually had a hard time with. I'm doing excellent in Mr. Kiaja's class.. and I'm in the spotlight again. I wrote a mere 89 words about how Confuscius's quote applied to my life, and I'm now the writer.. I wrote about a how I didn't get published my first time, and then, my second time I did. That is, however, a complete lie, I just couldn't think of anything else. My first time I did get published, and then, ironically, that day, I recieved my publication evaluation form for my poem "Unhealed" in the mail. That is really odd. I didn't have much hopes of it getting published, it was a simple "get it off my mind" sort of thing. Maybe this is really the beginning of a future and great career, at least, I hope. I really, really, want to be a writer. It's my dream. I know what I have to do to get there, and I'm on my path. Sam thinks she's going to move at the end of this school year. I really hope not. I don't want to lose another best friend and end up with 3 years of grief and poetry writing. I just seems that just when things are going good, that shadow in the corner of my mind gets bigger. I've come to accept the fact that I'll never really defeat that shadow, but there's the slimmer of hope in the back of my mind, like the hope of someone whose lost a loved one, they still sort of believe they can come back, and I still sort of believe that I can conquer that shadow. The good times really get my hopes up, and then, when I hit a depressing stage, it's like a bomb was just dropped right over my head, and it hurts even more because I thought the controversy was over, and that nothing bad could ever happen. And then there's that painful healing cycle, sometimes even worse than when the bomb hit, where you come to grips with it. Then, you get to confident, and the circle begins again. That's what life is, after all, one big circle. Which also adds to the fact that everything in nature is spherical or cylindrical.

2003-09-28T11:26:00.000-04:00

I'm tired, very tired. I woke up at 5 this morning. My sister called me last night from the Matchbox 20 concert and I got to hear some of it, it was awesome. My dad was just standing behind me "Not reading over my shoulder" either way, it makes me nervous. He's always chatting to my bitchy half sister in Tennesse, god only knows what he's telling her, and he gets mad at me even when I go past him to let the dog outside, so he really doesn't need to be saying anything, at all. I hope I can get my locker open when I get to school, that's really been bothering me.

I want to see School of Rock.. looks cool... there are so many kids my age that don't know what real rock is.. it's quite sad. But, hey, let them think that punk is original, or that Avril Lavegne is awesome.. let them worship their wimpy bubble gum pop stars.. in my heart, Aerosmith, Kiss, AC/DC, and Bon Jovi shall always reign.

2003-09-27T11:20:00.000-04:00

Whoa, it's only 8:20 in the morning here, and I'm certainly feeling it. Well, you should know, I've been dreaming that I was a pirate, and I've been fighting against the Natives with the Dead Rabbits in New York.. I've had quite a busy night. And my dreams were really quite vivid too, almost like a movie, they were quite interesting. I'd always wanted to be a pirate :)

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Bill The Butcher: How old are you, Amsterdam?
Amsterdam Vallon: I'm not sure, sir. I never did quite figure it.
Bill The Butcher: I'm forty-seven. Forty-seven years old. You know how I stayed alive this long? Fear. Fearsome acts. A man steals from me, I cut off his hand. If he lies to me, I cut out his tongue. If he stands up against me, I cut off his head, stick it on a pike and lift it up for all to see. A spectacle of fearsome acts. That's what maintains the order of things. Fear.

Just felt like putting that in there, it was a good line. Well, I'm going to have some fun and work on my project.

Son of the Shadows was an amazing book, as well, heh.

2003-09-26T21:48:00.000-04:00

Wow, forget that list.. erm.. Gangs of New York is one the best movies I've ever seen, period. I just had to type that, I'll elaborate more later. I'm going to bed.

2003-09-26T18:49:00.000-04:00

You know what is a good movie? A Knights Tale, yeap, that's right.

Here's my list of good movies, in no particular order.

Ferris Bueller's Day Off
A Knight's Tale
The Patriot
Pirates of the Caribbean
North
The Falculty
The Four Feathers
Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
Two Weeks Notice
Frank Herbert's Children of Dune
Frank Herbert's Dune

Going to watch Gangs of New York, have to fly

2003-09-20T20:04:00.000-04:00

Well.. I can't remember if I posted today or not, but I felt like another post, if I did.

When you left,
My support was gone,
I’m not sure about my feelings,
I’m not sure if I’m glad you left,
Or if I miss you even more,
There was something there,
Though you may have refused to acknowledge it,
I think you liked me too.
I wish I weren’t me,
My feelings are so hard to explain,
I think I love you,
I think I hate you,
I think you hate me,
I think you like me,
So many things happen that it’s difficult for me to decide.
You made me think you didn’t like me,
But, then, you went and changed again,
But, it doesn’t matter,
You’re gone now,
You haven’t contacted me,
I thought we had something going on,
But, I guess I was wrong,
It figures,
When I finally think I’ve got things figured out,
It totally backfires on me,
That’s me,
Always a few steps behind my own social life,
And everyone else’s.
Is there a place in society for people like me?
I haven’t found one yet,
I wish for once,
I was sure,
I was on target,
You could have helped me,
You could have given me a flat answer,
Then there’d be no reason to question what’s going on..
I just wish I could talk to you again,
To hear your voice,
To see you standing there,
I told you how much you meant to me,
But, you changed and that meant nothing at all to you,
Boy, that did a number on my self esteem,
You managed to make me feel bad,
But, still, never completely hate you,
And I came back.
Now it’s your turn.

I was thinking about someone I foolishly had feelings for, and foolishly still do. Isn't love just foolish. I honestly was the foolish one, I've always wanted a story book romance, a bit like Orien and Beryle's in On Fortunes Wheel.. or the most, Faramir and Eowyn's in Return of the King. Of course, I didn't think I'd have this romance with this guy, but I wanted some sort of romance, some sort of relationship, and he gave me neither. And then there's another guy, who I also have had strong feelings on and off for since 5th grade, I'm an 8th grader now, and I've never asked him out because I don't have the guts. But yet, I've got the guts to ask jackass guy #1 out.. what's wrong with me? I believe I've got stronger feelings for non-jackass #2.. but who am I to even try to unscramble my own emotions?

2003-09-19T07:46:00.000-04:00

TALK LIKE A PIRATE DAY HAS FINALLY COME!!!

Yo ho!! Aye, mate, me been waitin for this day to come! Argh.. finally a day to celebrate that's actually interesting! What think ye? Aye, well, for now, me be tired. The old squall is over with, though the Canadians are freaking out still.. "Oh no! I'm so scared!! The hurricane's coming right for us." Well, I'll be damned if I hadn't lost my power during the worst part of the storm, and I live in North Carolina in one of the counties that got hit the worst. According to the news, Virginia got it really bad, and Maryland's taken a beating.. oh no.. but North Carolina has got counties still with their power lost, hundreds of people are completely stranded, trees are down, houses are flooded out, major beach erosion, we've got a state emergency, and when it the eye of the storm came onshore around 1:00PM Thurseday, September 18th, it came onshore at Oakcrakoe Island, on North Carolina's Outer Banks, also known as the Graveyard of the Atlantic, where the grave of Blackbeard's flag ship, The Queen Anne's Revenge, a french vessle that he plundered, lies, where English Colonists first came to colonize the America's on the soil of our land, the home to the famous Lost Colony, which, after their governor left overseas for more supplies, was simply devoid of any inhabitants, the legendary birthplace of aviation, where the Wright Brothers took flight off of Big Kill Devil Hill and introduced a new form of transportation to the world, they did what no one else did, or could have done at that time, North Carolina's also home to the tallest Lighthouse in the US, Cape Hatteras, was one of the original first 13 colonies, has original forts and battlegrounds from the Civil War and Revolutionary War, our beautiful Beaufort was the inspiration of our local and renowned writer, Nicholas Sparks' A Walk To Remember which was later turned in a movie, filmed in Whilmington and was seen by millions on the big screen, (A very good movie, an excellent book) not stupid commercialized Virginia Beach...

Any way.. I'm off my rant now.. my apologies.. I'm just tired of how little attention and respect North Carolina gets.. it's like it's invisible.. mark my word, North Carolina is absolutly beautiful in the fall.. well, anytime, actually, I'm going to go out and check out the damage in little invisible North Carolina...

2003-09-18T14:26:00.000-04:00

Hurricane Isabel is currently taking her toll. The wind has picked up a lot, and we've got some gusts. The rain is pouring horizontally.. But, it's no worse than what we've had before, and hey, if it floods, I'm going to go a sailing on the inflatable raft-erm, ship, yea, The Morpheus, shall bear swiftly out to sea! Aye, mate, that be Captain Jane Sartossa to ye! Oi.. I wish I were a pirate. They just seem like they have so much fun. Plundering, smuggling, drinking ale. Aye, the ale and rum part, I imagine, is probably the best. I've always been keen of chugging ale... aye, mate, but, I'm under-age, and I'm not one to do some under aged drinking, yet. I'm not that rebellious, nor am I that much of a nonconformist yet, but give me time, time, and I'll be there. And soon, thy nasty landlubbers will have a new name to fear!! Blood-Eye Jane!

The Time Machine is a real good movie. It has further inspired me to read the classic novel. It was interesting, and Guy Pearce did a stand up job in the role of Alexander Hartdegen. It just blows my mind though, that there are people out there that find him sexy.. and dare to compare his sexiness with that of Viggo Mortensen... I actually find him rather creepy looking, to be honest. But, I also give him great and renown praise as Fernand Mondego in the Count of Monte Cristo, which, just in case you were wondering, is a fabulous book, and, just as you might have assumed, the movie inspired me to read it.

Well, I'm going to go for now. The power hasn't gone out, thank God, but I fear it eventually will. And when it does, I have a battery operated fan, mwahahaha, and I'll be damned if I'm going to share if with anyone.

2003-09-18T11:59:00.000-04:00

2003-09-16T17:29:00.000-04:00

Hurricane ISABEL

Yeap, ol' Hurricane Isabel will be hitting my state any day now.. school is officially closed Thurseday and Friday and we have an early release tomorrow. People are literally freaking out. I mean, yeah, hurricanes are scary.. but, really, they're not that bad unless your power goes out and it's really hot. When Floyd hit, we were trapped, litterally, they're only 3 roads you can use to get out of here and they were all flooded. I've so far survived 5 hurricanes, so, I have no worries about Isabel. Plus, I really do need to do some catching up on my reading and school work, so, why not do it during a hurricane? Yeah, plus, the hurricane will be coming by in the daytime, which is certainly better. During Hurricane Fran, which went by at night.. a tree smashed through the roof of my old house's porch. It was in the middle of the night.. scary as hell, man, to wake up to a loud crack and crash, and can only open your door half a foot because a huge 50 yearold oak tree was uprooted and landed on your porch. Plus, it was dark, so we weren't really sure if it was a tree. Man, the next day, people were coming by, asking if we were okay because from the road, it looked like the entire house was destroyed.

Yo ho, yo ho, a pirate's life for me! Now.. bring me that horizon.. and some bad eggs...

2003-09-15T20:54:00.000-04:00

Well.. I sure am bored. I've been doing online quizzes all afternoon.. well.. not really.. I'm exaggerating there. You can always trust a dishonest man (I'm not a man) to be dishonest, but it's the honest ones you need to look out for, because you never know when they might do something- stupid. People make the big mistake of stereotypically labeling me "quiet" and "good", techer pettish.. but.. those darn fool of a tooks! They can't look beyond one's outter image.. they assume that everything they see is true.. it's the whole, the main, they assume that the answer is right in front of their face. Sure, I'm quiet, sure, I don't act up in class.. sure.. techers like me.. condemn me to hell, why don't you? There's a hell of a lot more to me that many people fail to see. These, of course, are the same idiots who look at me with suprised and disgusted expressions on their faces when I declare I like to read. Same with write. I don't just excel in school for the grades, I excel in school because I like to. I have this dream to graduate from Duke University, and it's really beginning to look more like an attainable goal to me. Ever since I was little I've wanted to go to Duke. I guess part of me then wanted to be equal to my older sister in the eyes of my grandparents. Eowyn, my sister, was the apple of their eye, she was going to be the Duke Graduate from the family. They didn't have much hope for me, after all, I was part Spouce. Eowyn, however, goes to UNCW and is making a fine scholar out of herself. But now, I want to be a Duke Graduate for me.. because, in my eyes, being able to put "Duke Graduate" on a resume is like winning the lottery. Except, the chances of me ever buying a lottery ticket at all are almost 0. My dad wants me to go to Virginia with him the week after next. Well, according to him, I am. Though, I haven't even said yes. One of his uncles is dying. That's the only time my grandparents, that is, on the Spouce side, ever call.. someone's dying.. no, "hey, how ya doin!" "How are the girls?" No, no, don't expect common courtesy out of my grandparents on that side. They've chosen their grand kids that they're going to spoil, and of course, wouldn't you guess, it's not me. They get to see their grandparents every weekend.. they get to hold conversations.. not.. "How are your grades?" "Boy, you've grown." My grades are ALWAYS good.. never in my life have I recieved less than a Honor's Roll when the 9 week grading period ended. But, you know, I don't recieve much notification or attention for that, either. Neither does the fact that I just maybe the only teenager in the Cheroqing or Spouce family who's had a poem published by the national poets society astound them or earn me anymore praise. That's alright.. I see where my grandparent's priorities are, they're not in school work, they're not in being a "family", and they're not in being independant. Where does this leave me? Somewhere in the middle hating my grandparents, and yet, wishing to be the one they act like is a part of the family. Sorry, for this ranting.. I had to get it off my mind. See, legolamb.. I'm not perfect.. I'm feeling very emotional.. obviously, a lot of you wouldn't understand how much this bothers me.. but I had to get it out.
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2003-09-02T17:47:00.000-04:00

Hehe, I'm living the life with Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers, and Daredevil on DVD :D That part on the Special Features disc of Lord of the Rings, the WB special, where Billy Boyd says something along the lines of "Busom of nature" and then Domonic Monaghan says "Mmm.. Busom.." and then Billy Boyd says "Did I say busom?" and Domonic Monaghan just nods his head solemnly, both look at the camera with grave expressions on their faces.. cracks me up, and then there's the part with Billy Boyd has this piece of masking tape on his chest because his hair was making a noise in his mic, and he's like "They didn't ask me, they just put it on there" and Domonic rips it off for him, and Billy says like 5 different cuss words, it's just quality, side splitting, enertainment. I'm going to see Lord of the Rings: Return of the King at the first showing, at midnight.. and I can't wait.. but, it's going to take me going to bed at around 8:30 a few nights before, and a ton of caffiene.

Oh my gosh, before today, I had never seen a more sinful thing- Diet, Caffiene Free Mountain Dew Soda.. how can they even call this soda? No caffiene, no sugar, no fat, carbs, or calories.. just pretty much carbonated water.. it hurt my eyes, it nearly made me cry. Who are these people? Oh yeah, and Legolas has no problem with it, oh no, it's soda, and it's fine, I'm sure it just tastes like regular Mountain Dew.. yeah.. right.. Legolas is the one on the diet, who, whenever she buys lunch, she buys 2 snack cakes, complaining about my eatting habits. I hardly ever eat, and if I do, it's some pudding, or chips, and soda. I don't eat breakfast, I eat the pudding, chips, and orange juice for lunch, when I get home I'll probably get me 2 sandwhiches, and later on in the evening, I'll get a few spoonfuls of icing. Does that sound like 3 balanced meals to you? But, I have a high metabolism, thank god, and not much of an appetite, which is the reason why I remain around 100 pounds. I have really strange eatting habits, yes, I do.

Simon, yes, Simon, I haven't told you about Simon.. he's my new book character that I'm obssessing over. Simon's awesome, in Daughter of the Forest, he was captured by Sorcha's father's men, and brought before her father, Lord Colum, and was tortured, seeing as he was a Briton on Irish territory. But, Sorcha and her brother saw the pain in his face, saw that he was not that old, and strove to rescue him. Which they did, taking him to Father Brien's little hermit cave, almost dead. The only part that Sorcha had in this was the making of the sleeping draft that would be used on Simon's guards. But, after her bout in the village, healing those that were sick, she was sought out by Father Brien, who's own healing abilities were not enough to bring Simon out of his fever and delirium. See, Sorcha learned her healing abilities from Father Brien, but took her education further when she the books in Lord Colum's library. She spent many a week with Simon, she, herself, being only just about 13, bringing him back. At first, Simon took no trust in Sorcha, the enemy, who's kin had nearly killed him, but, then, he realized, that just because she was kin to torturers, meant nothing. To Sorcha, there was no good or evil side. Simon, became accustomed to Sorcha's tales, came accustomed to her being there for him. But, when Simon was nearly healed, Sorcha was torn away from him, and was forced to go back to her home, upon the arrival of his father and new wife. (Sorcha was a day old when her mother had passed away) Simon then took this chance an fled, but, before parting, he took a lock of Sorcha's hair, and gave her the knife he had used to cut it. He also left her a small wooden block with the sign of his troop on it. When Simon fled into the forest, the Fair Folk took him, playing their cruel games on him. Most men at that point would have lost their sanity, and so would Simon if it hadn't been for that lock of hair, for he knew who his heart truly belonged too, who he was in love with. He was away for 3 years, and his brother, Red, desperatly tried to find him. It was in his searching that Red had come upon Sorcha, and the fell in love, ending up marrying. When at last, Simon was freed by the Fair Folk, Red found him, and brought him back to their home. But, this was when Simon had found out that Red and Sorcha were married, and he realized that the one thing that could have so easily been, would never be. Red went to Ireland with Sorcha, leaving his old life behind, and was eventually accepted by the Irish villagers. Simon became Lord of Harrowfield, and had all he ever wished, but, it was easily seen, that now, now that he had his wishes, there was one wish in his heart that was still left, the desire to be the husband of Sorcha. This is Simon's story, the story of a blond haired, perriwinkle blue eyed briton who sought the love of one, one Sorcha.

I couldn't help it, I just had to share that bit about Simon.. he's one of my favorite characters.

2003-08-24T09:41:00.000-04:00

Oi.. my mom will spend money on wallpapering the ceiling rather than go see Pirates of the Carribean.. I've been asking to see it for MONTHS.... urgh............ All I want to do is see it before Talk Like a Pirate day.. and do you know what the chances of that happening are? Probably about 0 to none.. geeze........ grrrrr...................................... this stupid ceiling was the reason why everything in the livingroom had spray adhesive on it, including the houses inhabitants... and then my mom gets mad at me because she gave me the money to go to the Lost Colony.. and she thinks I'm asking for too much... blah blah blah... oh yeah, and now she's laying the whole Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers DVD on me.. oh yeah.. I'm the reason why she bought it.. sure.. and she's the reason why I got hooked on LOTR in the beginning... doesn't that tell you something? Yeah, and my sister won't take me to see Pirates of the Carribean either......... because she's "poor", well, she's doing such a great job of trying to get me to believe that, when she's constantly buying unneccesary stuff, such as 2 different kinds of hair curlers.

2003-08-23T13:29:00.000-04:00

Well... it's already 12:56, and I can't believe it... today and yesterday have just sort of run together.. I went to see The Lost Colony Outdoor Drama, about The Lost Colony. North Carolina was one of the first places in America where English Colonization, and our famous Roanoke Island was the site of the legendary Lost Colony. Not many people realize that North Carolina was, A, where the first flight took place, the birthplace of aviation (NOT OHIO), B, one of the first 13 colonies, C, is known to have been home to the famous Pirate Blackbeard, and D, where the first American was born, Virginia Dare, who disappeared with the rest of the Lost Colony. The Lost Colony has captivated me for years, and I've always wanted to see the live outdoor drama. Well, I took a trip there with my school, and I finally saw it, and it was nothing short of amazing. I loved it, it was so interesting and brought to life a part of North Carolina's history that had remained so mysterious to me for many years. The actors and actresses did such an amazing job, the choir was enchanting, and the setting and atmosphere brought on by all these was one to sink into. I was thuroughly impressed with John Borden, as well as Ananias Dare.. but maybe it was because I found them both to be rather handsome. I also got to go back onto the replica of the Elizabeth II, one of the ships which brought the settlers and colonists over to the new world. I also got to see the settlement and a weapons.. um.. err.. what's the word? Uh, yeah, weapons demonstration. I also got lots of good pics for the yearbook. I also rather fancied "Master Richard" on the Elizabeth II. I love North Carolina.. I love the colors of the fall, the mountains, the hidden things that no one but a local could notice, and few locals learn to cherish.

2003-08-20T19:59:00.000-04:00

Oh joy, I didn't have to avenge Sam's death today, nor did she have to avenge mine, but, if I hadn't such AMAZING control over my anger, Evenstar, now Elrond, (Still same person) would have had to avenge leggy-legless', now Legolas', (still same person's) death. She drove me crazy... ergh.. what's the point of playing cards with you can't play.. what's the point of saying you have an idea if you're not going to state you're idea, and act like nobody is interested, when Frodo (me) showed interest.. ergh... *steam whistles out of ears*

Hey! Good news.. wait, no no, GREAT NEWS, even better, AMAZING NEWS.. BREAKING NEWS!! WHOOOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOO! Now, I bet I've got you're suspense level up.. you're wondering.. what is this.. what could she be talking about? What could I be talking? 5, read it, 5, five, 5, five, 5, I say, 5, new Return of the King Teaser Poster have been released by the OFFICIAL SITE, which means, yes, they are official. As if that sexy one of Aragorn wasn't enough.. more *gah* beauty!!!

Warning: Umm, the one of Frodo, just may nearly bring you to tears.. I've never seen Frodo look this bad... seriously..... it makes you wonder just what happened to the old Frodo... the one of the Shire.. even though you know.. in the beginning you just think that there's nothing that will bring him down.. he'll always be Frodo Baggins of the Shire.. he's to powerful to let the ring take over him.. but... the movie definatly intensifies this.. you can see him, this burden.. he's no longer glowing.. he's sullen and dark.. you can definatly tell what he's been through.

Well, I was going to go on and on about something, but, forget it.. my spirits have been trodened upon by the great steed of depression, spreading it scaley wings out to take flight into my soul.. to take over, to take residence until I see the end of ROTK and can be sure he comes out well.. even though, I know he doesn't fully heal, I've read the book, now I've got this visual interpretation that must be clarified.

2003-08-19T21:23:00.000-04:00

Haha, you MUST read Dave Barry's blog.. if you guys have never heard of him, then, he's a pulitzer prize winning columnist and he writes for the Miami Herald. He's got quite a few books out.. and they are absolutly halarious, seriously. I love his writing.. and I want his job. To be able to update your blog 10 times a day with odd facts and news.. to write a column once a week that will be posted on Sunday in the newspaper, and better yet, to write about whatever you want.. it's a dream of mine.

Dave Barry's Blog

Hey.. I bet you didn't know that "Talk Like A Pirate Day" existed! It's international.. I read about it in a town near by, but, being as I live on the east coast of NC (that's all you're getting out of me) I thought it was just some weird local thing.. and it's not. You know, being as serious this country is, I think the ol' USA forgets how to laugh every now and then.. so it's good that be have day's like "Talk Like A Pirate Day" to let us remember. So, on September 19th, don't forget to "Talk Like A Pirate", matey!!

Talk Like A Pirate, Matey!

Yes, I have fallen off my rocker, and I have my friend, Sam Gamgee, to blame for that too.. And old Leggy-Legless acussed me of not possessing a watchamicallit- ergh.. yeah.. a sense of humor. Just in case you're wondering, Sam Gamgee, Leggy-Legless, and Evenstar are code for my friend's names, since I am a Lord of the Rings obssessor-(Hey.. could that be considered an occupation? Because, I'm currently unemployed-yeah right-unemployed-sure-)

Nine more days until Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers comes out on DVD

9 more days until Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers comes out on DVD

Nine more days until Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers comes out on DVD

9 more days until Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers comes out on DVD

Nine more days until Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers comes out on DVD

Oh no! WHERE ARE MY MARBLES!! YOU STOLE THEM DIDN'T YOU. *Is slowly losing grip of her sanity.* GIVE THEM BACK, I SAY!!! NOW!!! J/k!!You are The Cap'n!

Some men are born great, some achieve greatness and some slit the throats of any man that stands between them and the mantle of power. You never met a man you couldn't eviscerate. Not that mindless violence is the only avenue open to you - but why take an avenue when you have complete freeway access? You are the definitive Man of Action. You are James Bond in a blousy shirt and drawstring-fly pants. Your swash was buckled long ago and you have never been so sure of anything in your life as in your ability to bend everyone to your will. You will call anyone out and cut off their head if they show any sign of taking you on or backing down. You cannot be saddled with tedious underlings, but if one of your lieutenants shows an overly developed sense of ambition he may find more suitable accommodations in Davy Jones' locker. That is, of course, IF you notice him. You tend to be self absorbed - a weakness that may keep you from seeing enemies where they are and imagining them where they are not.

What's Yer Inner Pirate?
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2003-08-17T14:56:00.000-04:00

Well, right now, the best way to describe my mood would be tired. I didn't sleep well last night because I had an awful nightmare, so I've been up since 5:00am. Yeah, I'm thinking about getting in the pool this afternoon.. wow, how interesting. Nobody's available to chat with except for my half sister.. and well.. I don't chat with her. We had a bit of an argument.. well, more than just a bit.. a bad argument. I was in tears.. too much to handle for me. But, I won't get into it here. I feel myself often envying people with perfect lives, but, then I look at their personalities and I reassure myself that I'm glad I'm not like them. Life is unfair, and I'm glad I can accept this fact so easily. There are some people I know who just can't handle this. Though, there is one thing that I can't rid myself of, and that is my need to prevent things from happening. Sometimes, I just get into one bad situation, and I repeat to myself over and over.. "there's some way to prevent this from happening again" until I actually believe it. Then, I do my hardest to find this "prevention" when really none exist and I just wasted my valuable time. Well, I'll stop here today, I hope you enjoyed this slight insight on the workings of my mind.

2003-08-16T19:16:00.000-04:00

Well, today went okay, I guess, though I have discovered that I am not fully healed of my Matthew McCoughney trauma. I still can't stand him, and I think I've gotten worse. Man, it's hot in here right now, geeze, and my room smells like fish.. gross. 10 more days until LOTR:TTT comes out!!! Whoo hoo! I like stars, a lot... that's like the theme for my room. Yes, I am geek.. I roleplay, read for fun, play chess/checkers, write, into Lord of the Rings, Harry Potter, Dune, HTML and Computers.. and anything else "geekish" that I for perchance forgot to mention here. I want to become a writer/director/astronomer when I grow up. No, I'm not grown up yet, though I'm already a writer, a published one, too. I'm 13 years old and live on North Carolina's eastern coast. My name is Kiaki Mikunio. Yeap.. that's right.. no lie.. sure.. okie dokie. Well, maybe one day I'll preform some of my writing magic in this here journal, but right now, I'm just dreading Monday. Monday is the worst day of the world. It's like waking up.. it's never a good thing. Want to see a pic of my very own pet pig? I'm sure you do, his name is Orville, and he's one party animal!

Orville the Pig

And, I'm sure while you were looking at that, you were thinking, "Gee, I'd like to see her roleplaying character!"- well, I was thinking the same thing, so you're in luck! I've provided you with a look at Aerandir, my roleplaying character. Marcus Le'vae did it, he's a really good artist.. yeah.. Marcus is a *he*.. yeap.. that's right.. no lie.. sure.. okie dokie, Marcus *is* not my sister.. yeap.

Roleplaying Character

My eyeballs feel like they're frying, so I think it's actually time I stopped typing. Have fun with life and don't think about the future, or the past, or the present, because it's just all too depressing.